SJ: I have the same worry — I have for quite a while. One of my big insecurities remains people possibly patronizing me and talking to me as if they think I’m smart while, in all reality, they feel that I’m dumber than a box of nails. It’s an irrational fear, I know. But it still creeps up on me from time to time.

I challenge you to do this next year. If I can do it, so can you.

I’ve yet to make it to a TequilaCon, but feeling like I don’t fit in is what I fear most about going next year. Mostly because I worry that people are only *pretending* to like me, and really wish I’d just disappear.

SJs last blog post..Shadow

You know what? I have two favorite things about TC08—one is Hilly getting to go when she didn’t think she’d be able to—the other is having a small part in hooking you up with this crew. It makes me all smiley;-)

[...] Shiny very eloquently wrote about this sort of thing and says it much better than I can. But I can so relate, dude, believe me. It’s nice to hear that I’m not the only one struggling with these things. Nevertheless, it FEELS like I’m all alone, the wallflower freak that people (out of niceness) feel the need to say hello to. Again, I’m talking about feelings here, perceptions, stuff that may not actually be happening outside my skin, but is still very real indeed because it’s happening in between my ears. That’s a scary place to be, in my head. [...]

(And yeah – CommentLuv rocks.)

Avitable: Like I said — hard of hearing. You should have slapped the shit out of me or something…

NYCWD: You, too, are downright awesome. And you’re right — the environment and people made this a place far more comfortable than most.

Miss Britt: I certainly did.

Finn: Likewise. And I think I did warm up after a while as well. It’s the jumping in point which gets scary.

BubbleWench: I’m glad we met, even if briefly. Next time perhaps…

Kyra: So you know how I feel all the time…

othurme: … which is why I really hope to meet you at one of these in the future as well. Or maybe something smaller. Either way.

Winter: I don’t quite have the Nikki Sixx hair or tattoos, I’m afraid. But yes — looking forward to meeting you as well. I think this aspect of our personalities is shared by many.

Hilly: Thank you for handling the creamy center with care. I’m so glad I took that step.

NarfTastic: You certainly have the wall-balls thing going for you Thanks again for everything, and I adore you as well.

Jester: I have noticed. And I’m looking forward to hanging with you.

Karl: I suppose this is good a time as any to tell you that I loved your t-shirt. It served a purpose — like the lanyards and buttons. It helped people open up. And yes — the people were an integral part of it as well.

Fabby: Sorry to inform you that you didn’t make the Top 9. But you made a good showing at number 18 — smack dab between Chris Hansen from Dateline NBC and the fat guy from Lost.

Mattie: I was concerned about whether or not it was by invitation only. I mean, it wasn’t — anyone could come. But I was questioning whether or not I would feel welcome as a new blogger to the community. Many thanks to Jenny of RunJenRun who made me feel at home when I requested more info.

[...] This, this, this, and this are mirrors I can’t stand to look into. I wanted to write about my similar thoughts and experiences, but I’m unable to talk about myself in this manner without getting severely depressed. This post requires no comments. I’m not looking for sympathy. Just merely expressing my thoughts for today. I am so greatly impressed that people can write so eloquently about and in spite of feelings so similar to mine while those same feelings keep me from managing to force a smile in public even when I’m happy. [...]

Kyras last blog post..Feathers

bubblewenchs last blog post..1

I’m so glad you stepped out of your comfort zone (I would have never guessed it was a challenge for you — you were awesome). I loved chatting with you and look forward to getting to know you better.

Finns last blog post..OMG